I did it again. I just up and moved. No job but this time I am more prepared, this time I came back home to Illinois. I lay in bad at my good friends house this morning to a nice 33 degrees outside all the while people wonder why I left 80 degree winters.
Florida was amazing to me, all four and a half years of it. Going to the beach in December, January and February is pretty awesome when the rest of the country is covered in snow. The places I traveled while I rested here in Florida where amazing. New York, Alabama, Ohio and of course several trips back home for the holidays. I won’t ever let anyone forget my time on the cruise ship. Yes I was in the Southern Caribbean working on a cruise ship for 6 months, thats what inspired me to move to Florida in the first place. But…..oh my, the summer, while living and working in Florida, that I worked on a cruise ship in Alaska. Between Vancouver Canada and all of Southern Alaska, what an absolute amazing opportunity. Working on a cruise ship seems to be a once in lifetime opportunity and I did it twice! Last but not least I explored more of Florida then other people that have lived there all their lives. From Key West all the way up thru the Panhandle; I did, saw it, experienced it, ate it and took pictures. My last hurrah and long weekend I even took one of my friends kids with me and treated her as my own.
The adventures will continue, the ocean I will miss….deeply. The friends I have made I stood strong in their presents but many tears have fallen as I drove away. Then there was the kids and the discovery of my gift of connecting with them. I will miss them most of all………I worked with kids, mostly Elementary setting, the whole time in Florida. I work at a summer camp for kids and an after school program. I also volunteered at all the after school events and coached soccer. I volunteered at Give Kids The World and Make-A-Wish Foundation. All of this has inspired me to be a motivational speaker for children and write a children’s book. These children were so innocent and pure hearted. Getting to know them was like my reason for living this life I lead. Learning how they think and act. Watching how they interact with others. Seeing first hand where I can step in and inspire them for their futures to come. I made an impact on quite a few. Watching them light up when I said something cool, watching their eyes open back up after helping them through a personal problem, and seeing them show respect for me after talking thru something they did wrong. All interactions with these kids were amazing. I miss them all and most of all I miss the ones I was able to connect with outside of school through the parents I became friends with!
There was one kid in particular I connected with more than any. Don’t know why or how but the connection was huge. I don’t have my own kids but I would imagine it was a sample of the feelings I would have if she was my own. Of course I was good friends…..great friends with her parents and her whole family for that matter. I knew she was connected with me too. I know you should not pick favorites among siblings but too bad. The connection was so amazing, so interesting, so fascinating, so educational and so loving, at the same time. Talking to her, taking her places, watching her grow up and maybe even teaching her a few things as been an unforgettable experience. I knew I meant something to her and that was amazing. I watched her when she had a scare of moving away from me a while back but I dreaded when the time came for me to tell her I was moving away from her. Judging by the tears and anger and avoidance I am pretty sure I broke her little heart. We stay connected though and we have messaged each other back and forth a few times and hope she continues. I want to show her that people can be far away and still care deeply for them. She may have been more then a handful at times but the good moments far outweigh any moments where kids are just being kids. I would steal her up, in every positive sense of the expression, in a heart beat. It was the truest experience I had of all the kids and it will be missed.
Let us not forget the guy that offered for me to stay with him and his wife down in Florida, till I got back on my feet. You know the guy that introduced himself with nunchucks slamming into my hands, the one whose dryer I hid in equipped with snacks and was never found during hide and seek! The guy that will inadvertently research everything about something for you. I have known Chris for 30 years and its an honor to call him my best friend. He is the nicest guy I know, not just to me to everyone. I come down there and its like a reunion of memories. I was able to develop a better friendship with his wife and his beautiful children. He not only gave me a place to stay but him and his wife gave me the job I had that carried me the whole time I was there…..you know working with children. I got Chris into kayaking and soccer and then I leave….pretty sure hes “friendship” mad at me but we will be friends forever. I will miss hanging out at Chris’s house.
Thats it. My heart says its time to go home. I have dressed up Florida to be this amazing place and it is, but its time to go. Sure its the beginning of winter and I have blizzards and negative temperatures to look forward to but my heart says it is time to go. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. There is a reason I moved to Florida and I pretty well nailed that down if you are still reading! There is a reason I am moving back. For a goal oriented person standing still is probably the most depressing feeling ever. I loved my job and what I was doing for all of these children. It pains me very deeply to finally admit that the money was not there to achieve the goals I wanted in life. I was searching for a new job and there was nothing down there for me. I search for a forever girl and shes not down there for me. I have had so many adventures and met so many amazing people but I have spent too much time by myself. I have things I want to do and happen with my life and they weren’t happening.
The choice to move back home was hard. There was alot to give up and alot to gain. Alot to gain back and move forward with. I have not been happy or sad overall. One of my Florida friends said it best, I am at peace with my decision. There is no help like the help of family. There is no love like family love. Coming back here I have a plan. I know exactly what I want and I know my family will help me along the way. Big thanks to my brother for taking me in. My whole family has helped me so much and I know they will support me through this new transition as well. With my friends it’s like I never left. It’s so cool that my friends are friends with my siblings and my siblings are friends with my friends. Just how I left it!
Okay so here is the bottom line……the plan. Its quite simple; find a job, buy a new car, find my own place, get a pet or pets, then start searching for a new soulmate. YES, IN THAT ORDER! Of course I have prepared for this…..I have money saved up for bills. I have a new resume thanks to my other brother, and I have resources and networking connection to chase for my job search. I know what car I want and I know I want rabbits again.
I said 2018 was my year and I was wrong. Thats ok I have had a year to think about it and 2019 is my year people! You think that was it? Nope! Once I get a job and settle in my own place the car, the pets and the girl are just bonuses. It’s back to chasing my main goal…..motivational speaking for children. Everything I did do and will do in my life just adds to my story. I will start speaking this year and I will get back to posting here on the regular. Thats not all I still have a children’s book to publish, a TED Talk speech to give and new adventures to experience. Will there be challenges? Of course there will be challenges. Bring it on 2019. I have support from people all over the world and it’s foolish to not be motivated by that as January 1st 2019 hits. These are my minutes, my hours, my days and this is my life. I will take my life as far as it can possibly go! I will continue to help others at all times and be grateful for the help given to me.
Happy New Year everyone. Don’t just say 2019 will be the best year yet, get off your rear and MAKE IT HAPPEN!
A story. Maybe not a positive story but a real one. Maybe not a sad moment but this man he knows who he is and is grateful for….perhaps his gift. He can suck in anyones grief. He takes it away from them but then it gets stuck inside him. Little by little he releases himself onto others as he, little by little, takes in the negatives. He wonders if his down spells are just the build up of others he has tried to help. Sometimes helping without them even knowing. He does find opportunities to release these griefs, sadness and negativity but sometimes its hard to find. But still he searches because he knows he is meant for good things and he knows what he is capable of no matter how crazy his ways. His intention might be unconventional but his heart is always in the right place. Finding his way is a path that maybe people have never traveled. People understand the simplicity of his actions but can’t always comprehend the complexities of his motivations. If you have the pleasure to sit down and talk with this man you may never hear his own griefs. If he is not helping you I guarantee you are helping him. You must not worry because not everyone can take in emotions like that. Infact some people are so wired with positivism that its like a glorious release. This man will continue his journey of helping others at all times but while he goes he searches deeper into himself. He searches for that positivism with the glorious release. It could be God, the ocean, a person, a dog or even music? Who knows. But one thing is certain this man will not give up. His answers are out there and he will keep looking until he discovers the truth behind all his questions. If you find this man, he will help you as best he can. He is happy to help you again and again, but know that when he leaves he searches to charge up that positive once again.
You can not achieve greatness without reaching for greater things. I may not achieve all my great goals but I know I can achieve, always going after them!
My eyes are so set on being a motivational speaker. Even if I never get there, there is one thing most of you know about me, I WILL NEVER GIVE UP! You always hear, look at the journey not the destination. Life has picked this destination of motivational speaking about 7 years ago or maybe even longer. But I found my purpose at the bottom of my life……when everything was coming to an end, when life seem to be failing me. Thats when I just tripped over my purpose.
The purpose was to be more positive, to help others do the same and to inspire our younger generation and even the older generation. Even my dang auto correct on my phone at 3 am when I can’t sleep, is telling me my next move. IL. Stand for Illinois, thats where I came from and thats where I am moving back in only a few weeks.
Illinois is were I am meant to be now and some people get it. Some people understand what I am doing….this is amazing! It helps me know I am on the right course, where I am meant to be…..because getting people to understand me has been the hardest part and I have people young and old in my life that get it! I am meant to meet and interact with all of you. What you share with my life helps me strengthen what I share to yours and everyone elses life.
This new journey back home is a strange one, and as always promised in my life it comes packed with challenges. I have grown to understand that these challenges are what shapes my inspiration in the future. There is a mystery to my methods but there is no shortage of desire to get there.
Someone was talking with me about it being more enjoyable to bring someone along on their journeys and vacations. They could not be more right I would absolutely love to share my life’s journeys with no other then the right person or people. BUT, here is the thing, If I waited to do all that I have done with a significant other or even a friend I would have done very little to nothing for the last 7 years of my life.
I have done so much with my life already but if I waited for others these last 7 I would have never work on a cruise ship…..TWICE! I might have missed my opportunity to explore Canada, the Caribbean Islands, Alaska, New York, Ohio, Alabama and other places. I might have missed discovering the heart I have for children and the strongest connection I have ever felt in my entire life with inspiring our younger generation. I am gonna miss the great connections I have made here in Florida but I am sorry Adults, I am probably going to miss your children even more.
Speaking of Florida if I would of waited to go with someone on my dream list Florida tour these last (almost) 5 years, I would not have a destination list longer then Floridians that have lived here all their lives! I saw as far down as Key West, to the oldest city of St. Augustine and as far up and over as the border of Alabama. I have seen a plethora of beaches on the East coast, the West coast, in the Panhandle and in the keys. I have seen so much sea life in nature, dolphins swimming by me in the water and jellyfish riding the wave right up to my beach chair. I have seen manatees, alligators and turtles galore. Florida has a Cave….I have been in it. Florida has a wolf Preserve….I have huged a wolf….yea! Sushi, smoked salmon, ahi tuna…..the food I have eaten is so awesome. The gardens and natural parks I have visited. Riding my bike alongside the Ocean….WOW. The parks, Disney, SeaWorld, and so many others. The list goes on and on. Journeys to be jealous of…..journeys within the journeys. If I waited for someone to go with me I can’t even imagine how many things I would have missed how many things I would have never discovered.
I Discovered new skills. New skills with children of course, both regular education, special education and stealing the attention of my friends kids. New talents in writing too. If you know me I am a man of many skills and I came across the wonderful skill of photography in the best way possible…..I was taking pictures of Alaska with my phone and after I posted the pictures someone asked “what kind of camera do you have?” It blow my mind and transfered to being obsessed with wanting to photograph the moon and buying a nice camera and doing just that!
Norman Vincent Peale said “Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you’ll land among the stars.” I have never heard that quote till after I took my pictures of the moon and my mind just exploded with positive reality. I believe so much, that everything happens for a reason, so much that I think you are foolish to not believe. Our lives are full of fresh ideas and new adventures but we have to let ourselves follow that path. No its not always safe. Yes its littered with changes and challenges, but dang it….play it safe and you live for nothing more then the story of what someone else has already done. Create your own story, live your own life, don’t wait and remember everything happens for a reason.
I like positive people. I like honest people. I like people who communicate. I like people that are more about others and less, all about themselves. I like people with no societal agenda for approval. I like people that can picture memories and not just selfies. I like real people! I like original people. I like people that have the ability to see and except the originality in others. I like people that can see the good in others and acknowledge it. I like those that can not just say it, but are truly grateful for who and what they have in their lives. I like people that try new things. I like people that take risks and destroy failure and keep going. I like people that try their best no matter how good or bad they are. I like people that understand perfection should be a personal definition not a magazines definition. I like natural people and nature people.
This could be anyone and everyone! There is no gender here. There is no nationality here. There is no age here. There is no political or religious view. Its just people being people and excepting each others humanity.
We can not have a perfect world but we could make it better then what it is now. We can accept ourselves for who we are. We can accept others for who they are. We can embrace differences as a one-of-a-kind. We can all appreciate one anothers efforts and praise those for simply trying their best.
I like people that look for the positives in other people and things.
This is a world where we can decide who we are. What do you decide?
This blog post is to good. I NEED TO SHARE IT AGAIN. If you have heard it before it’s time to hear it again. If you have not heard it before it’s time to start listening!
I was never one to be to excited about celebrities. They were great on screen or in concert and that’s it for me. I did not need to meet them. I didn’t care what they were doing with their life outside of the big screen.
My opinion of them has changed over time. There are so many videos being produced of their background stories. So many celebrities went through such terrible times to get where they are now. But their drive to move on, to succeed and change their lives is amazing and they deserve to be under the spot light.
Their pre-famous struggles inspire me so much and I have never really admitted that through my negativity toward the celebrity world. My background does not compare to most of them but it really shows me hope. It really shows me that if I stay true to me and keep moving forward I will find my fame. I will find what makes me an inspiration in helping others have more positive lives.
Sometimes I get so discouraged with my goals and right now I have gotten to comfortable in that mind set. I need to set aside my desire to help others all the time and help myself first. I’m not fully happy where I am in life right now and it is only me that can change that. I will not run back to the comfort of the past because the answers lie in the future. It’s time to try new things and move on. It’s time to motivate myself to inspire and help others even more but first it’s time to motivate myself. It’s time to drop the new negatives and move on. It’s time to ignore the naysayers and do what my heart says is right.
If I have learned anything from celebrities it’s this: My past does not decide my present. I can’t stop when it gets hard. I can’t hide when everyone is against me. I will fail and fall over and over but it is so important that I get up and try again.
I always tell my life path and goals story to everyone I meet. It is so benificial to do this. You never know what resources you can find or what advice people have for you while reaching your goals. By now I am sure 90% of you on here know I want to be a motivational speaker for children. I was telling my story to a coworker from the city on Friday and she randomly said “You are so in tune with all the kids, and you do so much volunteering for them as well. I think you should try to write children’s books with your positive messages through life.”
My mind just exploded right then. I am not the best writer but it’s a work in progress and the ideas are already in my head. So in my state of not being able to sleep I took an aptitude test evaluated by actual people to see what they say! Honestly if it’s meant to be it won’t matter. 15 years ago I didn’t know what a positive life style was, 6 years ago I didn’t now I would be starting a blog about positivism with over 350 posts. I was told I can’t write my own quotes but I have over 60 memes I made myself with my own quotes and photography. 5 years ago and again even more recent I had no idea of working on a cruise ship. It was near impossible but I did it…..TWICE! Almost 4 years ago I had no idea I would uproot my whole life to move to Florida…..thanks to my best friend here I am. I just went to the beach a couple days ago too! I Had no idea I would have the desire to be a motivational speaker but through my blog and job searching it became my main goal. I had no idea I would be working with children, I had no idea I had such an amazing connection with them. I had no idea I would be working to become a motivational speaker for children.
You get the idea? I tell everyone my story. I tell everyone my goals. You never know until you start talking and networking, what is going to happen with your life. Children’s books are just another avenue to go after. I will try anything because you never know till you try.
Your life can be full of wishing you tried that, full of could have been, or full of regret! Or it can be full of try everything. If you fail just move on. I never said I would be good at any of these things I have tried in my life but one failed oppertunity to the next I will find the right place for me. I believe everything happens for a reason and I also believe in the subtle signs our life gives us.
My life is rediculously hard right now. I try very hard to not complain about it. So much is going on in my life at work, in my future and mentally in my head. I need to sort it out. I fully believe my life is heading toward another big shift but I am not going to find it standing in a place where I am physically and mentally going nowhere.
If you see me I am quite calm and quiet now. I’m beat down, I am thinking and over thinking. I am tired. I need to be in a place where I matter. I need to be appreciated for who I really am. I need to be around more people that inspire me. I need to keep trying new things. There is a break through out there for me and I am not stopping till I find it.
My mom just posted a story about Thomas Edison on my Facebook. I was going to comment all this there but I wanted to make a post of my own. I think that we can inspire others with our own humilities. School life and growing up are a big part of who we all are and this here is part of my main motivational speech! The video she posted is at the end of my post.
School was very hard for me but I made my way through it. Some parts became easier some stayed hard. Even today my reading skills are not like everyone else at my age, my memory retention for facts is terrible and taking a test as an adult is still one of the most nerve racking things ever. Also you can tell when I quickly write something without rereading it, it is littered with spelling and grammar errors. All this time: being held back a grade in elementary school, finding my depression in middle school, discovery my reading disability in high school, failing every Art History test I have ever taken in all 4 classes in college and I still passed . I was an art major and despite those failures I brought my design career to design director only to decide I wanted to follow my real passion 10 years later with no intention of going back to school.
I just did not like school. It was always so hard for me. Seeing the school systems today I probably would get sent home with a letter too. There is so much pressure put on these kids to learn quickly, tested to death, and wonder why there is so much of a behavior problem in the schools. They funnel in college at elementary level….college was not even a thing to be heard of till High School and I grew up in a higher class area too. They want to push college on so many kids only to graduate into a terrible job market!
I can’t change the governments standards for education…….Or can I? In the mean time I am going to continue to work on inspiring children and how to keep doing it better and in bigger ways. All while establishing myself as a big community member as well.
Through it all and up till right now I have battled many challanges and there are many more to come. One thing that will never stop is ME! I will not give up. My passions are easy and natural sharing them with the world is my journey and my destinations will be marked by speeches given over the rest of my life time.
I have been told by so many that I was dumb…Some of those close to me as well. But I don’t listen to those people and I stand today right now sitting on compliment after compliment about how much I know and how good I am at what I am doing. Not how much I know from a book but how much I know from real life and everything I have been so grateful to experience in it.
Stay positive. The road you are meant to be on is not the easy road. Never quit your journey and don’t listen to closely to other people’s negative judgement when you already know who you are.
I decided to put together a picture video review. I am really glad I did too. I was having fun putting it together and it was not till I watch the video myself that I got really excited. I have been down on myself for not achieving the one goal I set out to achieve. I have been really beat down about so many things this past year. All of that negative has clouded up my head and this video was a nice reminder of all the things I have done and accomplished. I hope you enjoy watching it. Some of the pictures may need explanation but every one of them does mean something important to me! HAVE FUN! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
“Chase your purpose and success will follow.”
Not sure who wrote this but I like it. I have chased down a lot of challenges in my life and came out on top. I am not one to give up. I have many talents, many things I am good at but I am not one to brag. Just to name a few I am an excellent photographer, an excellent baker and cake decorator, and an excellent graphic designer. I have 10 years of experience in graphic designer I was amazing at it but it was not my purpose. I am good at reading people’s minds and emotions, I am good at helping other people at all times, and I am good at staying true to myself. I am good at standing up for what is right, standing up for what is fair, and treating others the way I want to be treated.
All my life people tell me I am such a great person: “you will make a great husband and father someday,” “If I was not married I would date you in a 2nd,” “how are you not married?”
I am so good at so many things but there are things I am not good at or not good at anymore. Soccer, I used to be great at soccer. I have never really been good at bringing in the ladies! I have never really been good at being less feminine. Though I have had a huge phase in my life I was wildly popular I have never really been good at finding friends. I have never really been good at common social conversations, you know like current events, movies, shows, music.
I am not looking for praise or for people to feel sorry for me but I do know this through everything I found my passion! Positivism and children…..oh man! Two passions? Yes, but they work so well together. I never payed any attention to how good I am with kids. I look back in the past and look at me now, I have huge connection with children. They look up to me, they listen to me and they are inspired buy me. I can make a connection with a child from across the room that I never met. Every baby I have ever met has started smiling around me, every single one. Now that I work with children the positive connection is overwhelming. So many things pouring into my brain. But here is the easy part, I walk into my job, I don’t even try and I just be me and I seem to be walking on a red carpet as a celebrity to these kids. It’s stronger then ever this year. Some kids I don’t even know but the want to know me. I know this is normal for all teachers to have little kid followers but man I feel like I have 100’s! I do not spend very much time outside my classroom with the other students but it seems the morsels of time I do interact with them I seem to inspire them and I seem to add a little positivism to their lives.
I walk into my job, tough as can be, with little pay as a teacher assistant to special needs kids and I walk in positive. I walk in to make a difference in my students lives and everyone’s really. Most of the teachers don’t know I have had a depressing past, they just see Mr. Positive. Most teachers don’t know I am shy behind my overly delightful greetings. Most teacherz probably think I am weird and they could not be more right. I am weird, I am different, and I am awkward, but I am one of a kind. Positivism is my life. It is not natural to me but it is my passion and each time I seem to not be going anywhere in life I can look back and see how much closer I am to my purpose then ever before. People compliment me on my positivism with no Idea I used to be good at being negative and wanting to die. But I am happy I am in a place where positivism and great with kids is what they know about me because that’s my life now.
Now what I hear is. “Man you are great with kids,” “how many kids do you have?”(0) “What did you go to school for (I went to school for graphic design). “How long have you been doing this?” (4th year only)
I have be working with kids as a profession for just over 3 years. I have been working on being Mr. Positive, aggressively for about 5 years. I have found my passions and combined I will be a great motivator for children. I have found my purpose and I am delighted with the success but there is more to come. It has to get harder before it gets easier. I have to learn before I can advocate. I have to research before I can present. I have to keep living life the way I am to learn what I can to be the most child friendly positive person you will ever meet. I have a bright and powerful future ahead for me I just have to make it thorough the struggles to get there. I have to be stronger and I have to learn more. I have to be me and that is the easiest thing any of us can do, be ourselves.