“Chase your purpose and success will follow.”
Not sure who wrote this but I like it. I have chased down a lot of challenges in my life and came out on top. I am not one to give up. I have many talents, many things I am good at but I am not one to brag. Just to name a few I am an excellent photographer, an excellent baker and cake decorator, and an excellent graphic designer. I have 10 years of experience in graphic designer I was amazing at it but it was not my purpose. I am good at reading people’s minds and emotions, I am good at helping other people at all times, and I am good at staying true to myself. I am good at standing up for what is right, standing up for what is fair, and treating others the way I want to be treated.
All my life people tell me I am such a great person: “you will make a great husband and father someday,” “If I was not married I would date you in a 2nd,” “how are you not married?”
I am so good at so many things but there are things I am not good at or not good at anymore. Soccer, I used to be great at soccer. I have never really been good at bringing in the ladies! I have never really been good at being less feminine. Though I have had a huge phase in my life I was wildly popular I have never really been good at finding friends. I have never really been good at common social conversations, you know like current events, movies, shows, music.
I am not looking for praise or for people to feel sorry for me but I do know this through everything I found my passion! Positivism and children…..oh man! Two passions? Yes, but they work so well together. I never payed any attention to how good I am with kids. I look back in the past and look at me now, I have huge connection with children. They look up to me, they listen to me and they are inspired buy me. I can make a connection with a child from across the room that I never met. Every baby I have ever met has started smiling around me, every single one. Now that I work with children the positive connection is overwhelming. So many things pouring into my brain. But here is the easy part, I walk into my job, I don’t even try and I just be me and I seem to be walking on a red carpet as a celebrity to these kids. It’s stronger then ever this year. Some kids I don’t even know but the want to know me. I know this is normal for all teachers to have little kid followers but man I feel like I have 100’s! I do not spend very much time outside my classroom with the other students but it seems the morsels of time I do interact with them I seem to inspire them and I seem to add a little positivism to their lives.
I walk into my job, tough as can be, with little pay as a teacher assistant to special needs kids and I walk in positive. I walk in to make a difference in my students lives and everyone’s really. Most of the teachers don’t know I have had a depressing past, they just see Mr. Positive. Most teachers don’t know I am shy behind my overly delightful greetings. Most teacherz probably think I am weird and they could not be more right. I am weird, I am different, and I am awkward, but I am one of a kind. Positivism is my life. It is not natural to me but it is my passion and each time I seem to not be going anywhere in life I can look back and see how much closer I am to my purpose then ever before. People compliment me on my positivism with no Idea I used to be good at being negative and wanting to die. But I am happy I am in a place where positivism and great with kids is what they know about me because that’s my life now.
Now what I hear is. “Man you are great with kids,” “how many kids do you have?”(0) “What did you go to school for (I went to school for graphic design). “How long have you been doing this?” (4th year only)
I have be working with kids as a profession for just over 3 years. I have been working on being Mr. Positive, aggressively for about 5 years. I have found my passions and combined I will be a great motivator for children. I have found my purpose and I am delighted with the success but there is more to come. It has to get harder before it gets easier. I have to learn before I can advocate. I have to research before I can present. I have to keep living life the way I am to learn what I can to be the most child friendly positive person you will ever meet. I have a bright and powerful future ahead for me I just have to make it thorough the struggles to get there. I have to be stronger and I have to learn more. I have to be me and that is the easiest thing any of us can do, be ourselves.